It’s been forever since I last blogged. So long, in fact, I couldn’t access my old page for whatever reason. Maybe it was a delay in memory or lack of trying, but whatever it was or is I’m chalking it up for a reason to change.
Change has been my 2020 mantra and gosh have we had a lot of it. This year has definitely been a year of continuous pivots (I’m looking at you Friends fans). We have 12 weeks before we send this dumpster fire of a year packing it’s bags.
When I set out this year, like most, I had all of these goals, resolutions, big ideas and great aspirations to make this the best year yet. Little did I know this would be the year that I would learn to be gentler with myself, others and learn that less makes us more. I’m not sure I set the world on fire with all that I have done, but I’ve filled my soul more than I could have ever imagined.
One of my biggest goals this year was to become healthier. I did not say skinnier because as I’ve learned, happiness doesn’t come from a certain pant size or what number the scale might decide to say on any given day (dang thing is like entering a casino; sometimes you win a car and sometimes you’re walking out of the building empty handed, crying your eyes out).
I’m going to be honest, I’ve had some pretty good “aha moments” followed up with binging moments, fast forward to me eating all the scotcheroos (omg they are so good) and cookies (not just any cookies: sugar cookies and chocolate chip cookies with frosting in between)...I’m a full blown sugar addict... (they say the first step is admitting it...I’m not sure they ever said what the next step is) I’d like to say I found the balance, but there is definitely room for improvement...okay...a lot of room for improvement.
So what has brought this on and why am I back blogging again...thank God, I thought you would never ask. First, I truly missed writing and second, if any of you know me, you know how much the gym has played a big part in my life for the last seven years. It’s something I’ve always looked forward to and at one point even became addicted to it (yes, I’m aware, I have an addictive personality, something I’ve been working on). Before Covid and during I fell out of love for the gym and that was a very difficult feeling for me to comprehend. I stopped going and I just didn’t want it to be a part of my life anymore. The last couple of weeks I decided to do what I would call a “Hail Mary” pass and I decided to give it one more try. It took a bit, some crying, some bargaining, some hits and some misses and I’m happy to say, I’ve once again fell in love with the place that has held so many life lessons for me.
But wait, there’s more. I was approached by one of my very best friends to do a challenge with her for the next eight weeks...this is someone I met through a gym setting and whom has held a very special place in my heart ever since. We used to work out together, until she moved away. I truly miss seeing her face and working out with her and thought what a wonderful opportunity to bond with her and also try to get on the healthy track...you know at least more than a half a wheel.
I pondered about doing a blog about my experience because I wasn’t sure if that would be defeating or encouraging and I wasn’t sure who the Hell would even care. But as I was reading more about the challenge and reading some or their story’s I realized how amazing each person‘s experience was and how very inspired I felt after reading them. I thought this would be helpful both to myself and maybe someone else who might be looking for a good kick in the butt to start reaching their goals.
I’m not sure how often I will write or what it is that I will have to say, but I will be giving you a front row seat to all the thoughts that go on in my head through this entire challenge (good, bad and everything in between). I’m not an expert, I‘m not a nutritionist, I’m not perfect, but I am a human who’s looking to become the best version of herself (yessss, that saying is used way too much). If what I have to say inspires one person to be courageous enough to do something they’ve been dreaming of, then this would be all worth it.
Monday starts our challenge, tomorrow is before pictures (insert blah face here) and getting my plan in order to make this every bit as successful as I can. I‘ve started and stopped a lot of things, my follow through hasn’t been the best, but this time...this time is going to be different (she says a little more confident than she has before).
I can’t wait to share my experience. Something in my heart tells me that this is what I was born to do...share my heart with you. So come along on my journey, it’s going to be a fun one filled with all of the life lessons. You’re going to see me stumble, fall and get back up and I hope along the way I not only learn a little more about me, I hope it’s a chance for you to learn a little more about you. Be kind, be love, be you.
Love to you all;
Shea
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