I know you're probably wondering, "Where is Shea?", "How is she doing on her challenge?", "Bet she gave up already!"...hahahaha suckers (I say laughing out loud), I'm right here! Enjoy my cheesy selfie, I am trying to embrace the me without make-up (thanks Covid for allowing me to love myself at a whole new level).
Have you heard the quote:
"For the real winners, there is no finish line."
I have mentioned this before, but I am an all or nothing kind of girl. I either go full speed ahead or nothing at all. There is no in between for me on anything really. When I started this challenge that was my commitment to myself, BREAK THIS HABIT!
I get so fixated on the finish line and getting there as quick as possible that I would throw all the advice, opinions, what worked in the past and all of my energy into getting there. I noticed the first week, while I felt like I was scaling back from my usual patterns, I in fact was still going at it harder than I needed to. I was again focusing too much on the finish line.
After thinking about what it was that I wanted, I decided to remove the finish line completely. While it's incredible to cross the finish line, nothing feels as great as actually "running" the race (Yes, I have ran a few so I know...lol). The views, the small victories, the big accomplishments, the feeling of doing something you have never been able to do, falling, getting back up, feeling defeated and then kicking butt. Crossing the finish line shows an end to something and I don't feel like I ever want to be finished with me!
I don't want to wait until I am finished to do the celebrating, I want to find something every day worth jumping for joy about even if that just means I finished my water goal I set for the day! This challenge isn't a new "race" for me, but the person "running" it, she is not the same!
Week 4 Coming Up
My summary of the last three weeks:
Accomplishments
Drinking all of the water (did you know the more water you drink the thirstier you become, yeah I don't understand it either).
Can once again hold myself up on the Rig at the gym (rig is a fancy word for pull up thingy...straight out of wikipedia...haha)...no pull up yet, but I think I will get there.
Can do double unders (a few), still don't understand where these will get me in life, but if my Mom ever pushes me out of the nest I have a fighting chance.
4 out of 7 days I don't eat sweets or drink pop, sometimes 3.5, sometimes 5, but I'm averaging it to 4...I am not good at math so I could be wrong on the average.
Found out when you are watching what you eat, the weirdest combinations taste very good, still don't follow a recipe, but what I have been coming up with works.
Consistency at the gym, only missed two days in the 15 days that it is available to go...it's not a world record, but it might be a Shea record.
Podcasts!!! OMG, why have I not jumped on this bandwagon sooner? I even take notes...I don't even know who I am anymore. My favorite one will be featured below.
Missteps
Still working on my moderation with sweets, think unchaperoned kid in a candy store and you'll have a great mental picture of me...definitely room for improvement.
I still don't love CrossFit, mostly because the movements are hard and every time they say Snatch the 13 year old kid in me can't stop laughing.
Doing too much activity every day, decided I needed a schedule, all set for week 4.
I am sure that there have been more missteps that have occurred and I am not concentrating on my food fumbles too in depth right now, but overall the last three weeks have had more good than bad.
Joggin the Noggin
OMG! I have found my favorite Podcast thus far!!!! It is Primal Potential. If you struggle with food and are just looking for some ideas that pivot your mental game, I promise this is a good one! This was a great episode and they are a short listen, which is fantastic for my wandering head!
Ear Candy
I LOVE music so much! It just motivates me on many levels. Making playlists, truly makes me the happiest! I should have been a DJ...hahaha...next life! Here is one of my favorite workout songs!!
Say it Again
My Reflection
I used to be very hard on myself. I used to have a hard time finding anything good in who I was and what I had to offer...to be truthful, I am not even sure I ever thought of myself at all. I believe there is a definitive line between someone who is narcissistic and one who is learning how to love themselves. I have never classified myself in either area, but as I continue on this journey I am learning how to do the latter. It's not an easy road and there are many things that send my mind in a whirl, have me doubt my worth and stop me in my tracks, but I have a giant heart and I know in order to love those in my life the way that they deserve, I need to learn to love myself in the way that I deserve. Love brings more love! If there is anything I take away from this "race"...it's not just about those waiting for you at the finish line, it's about those that keep pushing you, loving you and reminding you to keep going...if you are doing it right, you, yourself will be your biggest fan!
Week 3...check, check, check!
Be Kind. Be Love. Be You.
Love to you all;
Shea
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